We all have a purpose with the provided help from your father (God) you can
gain the gift of knowing your purpose and living it out. As an adolescent I
struggled with depression I had what you would call a generational curse I
spent majority of my time hidden in my room, eating badly and struggling with
my appearance. I’ve always had an idea of whom God was I knew he created the
earth and all things that reside on it but what I didn’t know was why he
created me. I wondered and questioned my reason for being created majority of
my life. I felt as if my presences was not needed me being created was in vain
and I served no purpose on this earth I felt that way throughout Middle school
all the way till the end of High school. After High school things got a little
better for me I started to come out of my shell. Little did I know what waited
for me after climbing out of this shell! I found myself looking for love in all
the wrong places trying to be defined by my boyfriend other individuals that I
called my friends but truly were not my friends. I suffered for years all
because I allowed suffering in my life I never lost sight of the fact that God
is the one and only creator I just ran from my father and tried to make my own
way without him. I've learned in my 28 years of living that all humans have
this one thing in common that they will disappoint each other in one way or
another and with that knowledge I learned to trust God 100% I know he will not
turn his back on me through his son I have eternal life. I fell upon so many
hardships putting my all into other sources besides God. Being lost and lacking
knowledge of who you are is a very scary way to live. It’s like driving a car
and not knowing what any of the safety signs on the road mean. I created
friendships without consulting with God, I created a child without consulting
with God and I even took a huge step and married without asking my father is
this what he wants for me I lived my life footloose and hard headed. Not until I
decided to trust God and accept that I cannot live my life let alone make any
decisions without conformation from him did start to really live and not just
exist. After suffering through years of frustration and pain from those I loved
the most, did I realize that no amount of happiness worldly living gives me
will amount to the true love and happiness God had in store for me! God is my
real and only true love through him I learned that he does not want me to be in
love with the things or people he bless me with or provide for me on earth he
does want me to love everyone unconditionally. But, before you love others
unconditionally what about yourself? I had to go to God with my heart ready to receive
him cry out for forgiveness for my trespasses and ask for help with forgiving
my trespassers. I had to be delivered from self-hate and later I will discuss
all the different levels and ways self-hate can take over your life without you
even realizing it. After doing this which took years and it was not easy did I
get to the place I am now, I finally recognize and fully understand who God is
creating me to be I am a creation in his image and my purpose will be served
through pleasing him and seeking him! I do stress this to you and to myself as
well as you grow in Christ you will begin to know more and more about who you
are but you must seek him because who you are is hidden in your mighty Father.
By me seeking God continuously and crying out to him he finally revealed a
portion of my purpose and that is to be a service to his people after I was
blessed with the wisdom and heart of loving unconditionally I realized im supposed
to assist those that feel as if the world has turned its back on them and to
lead them in a better direction the right Direction to God and his son. Field
of Vision Family resources is here to service the community in more way than
one.
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